Well, look at that–I’m writing a blog post. It’s been awhile. I’m feeling conflicted lately about blogging. I’ve been writing, but not sharing my thoughts online like I used to. And recently, I asked myself why.
It’s fear, plain and simple. Fear of what others think. Fear that others might think I’m trying to be a super-blogger, a fabulous writer with a large following. And obviously, if I were aiming for that, I would be failing miserably. I’m not even sure that my husband or my mom read my blog.
It’s fear that no one cares what I have to say. Or that they will think it is stupid or lame or silly. There’s nothing special about me or my writing. I’m no longer a mom with cancer. I don’t have deep thoughts or grand ideas or new insights or beautiful stories to share. My thoughts are no more interesting than yours, and at best, I’m maybe an above-average writer. So why should I blog? Why should you spend time reading it?
It’s fear of adding to the massive amounts of information in the blogosphere. I often feel the need to unplug from all the voices clamoring for my attention and just be quiet with God’s Word. Maybe you feel that way, too. I’m not helping matters by adding to the voices.
It’s fear of thinking too much of myself. I already struggle with thinking of myself too often. I don’t need to spend more time thinking of how valuable I am (or my writing is) in the eyes of others.
And yet, God has given me the ability to write. He’s given me a willingness to share my writing with others. He’s given me a husband who knows how to make a website. I feel God calling me to share these things.
I love to write as a way to process what I’m thinking, feeling and learning. I’d love to process these things further with people around me. So if you know me personally, I’d love you to ask me more about what I write here. Let’s have coffee and chat! Challenge me, question me, ask me how I’m living out what I’m learning and writing. Share with me how you’re struggling or being challenged by the Lord. I’d love that!
So I will share and pray that God will use it in whatever way He chooses. And I will ask Him to enable me obey His command to have no fear.
Share
Aw, blog away! Who cares what anyone thinks? I will surely read your stuff if you post the link to Facebook! Looking forward to it! *hugs*
I’m so glad you’re blogging again! I recently resurrected my blog and was wondering if you were still writing. I enjoy reading what you have to say so keep sharing! God bless!
Your Mom loves reading your blogs….I just do not comment normally. I often read them with tears flowing and prayers of thanksgiving rising! You are am amazing daughter, and I am so thankful for all the ways I see God’s grace at work in your life.
I love you, precious daughter!
Mom